God’s been taking me on higher road places that are hard and uncomfortable. I’ve been feeling like I’ve stepped back into my childhood awfully used and worthless.
I never mentioned my grief to my husband, to boot He’s been struggling too, living disheartened and I’m not sure if it was out of frustration or dyer need for hope that my husband suggested we move.
It was here that my heart began dreaming what that could look like. I researched small towns with less streetlights than I had children, and I was allured to the idea of living beyond small backyards with high walls that confide the flight for more.
I’m realizing that not all dreams are created equal sometimes dreams go sideways. And when my BIG dream began taking far longer than anticipated I questioned the deep motives of my heart, if my dreams were God-dreams or selfish ones?
God doesn’t want me to make miracles happen, He wants me to experience them. I had to ask myself, “Have I allowed my dreams to become an idol and overshadow my relationship with God”? The hard answer was yes, and it needed to be confessed.
I’ve found in my wilderness wanderings that I fail God when I back away from those who’ve hurt me. God doesn’t want His story to be shared in a whitewashed lifestyle, or in the running away. He wants it told in the mess. How about you friend? Have your dreams stalled out, becoming unmovable?
Sarah Mae has written Longing For Paris, a book that encourages every woman’s heart that has ever longed for more to embrace the beauty that surrounds her heart right where she is.
You can pre-order Sarah’s book here: http://www.amazon.com/dp/1414372612/ref=cm_sw_r_tw_dp_mMoGvb1QB6JHY and then join me in August on a special FaceBook page as you and I study together the deep longings in our heart and God’s intentional plan for them.
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